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[Gamzee was just inside the hive door, looking out through the window. Once he saw Nepeta arrive, he took in a deep breath and slowly opened the door.

He wasn't sure he knew how she was going to react, after all, he looked like death warmed up. Sure, his wounds had been treated by healers here in the city, but when he was brought back to life, he still had a few broken bones, deep cuts and new scars.]

. . . Hey

[She's brought up short by the way he looks - even with all the things she'd imagined, finding him still so horribly injured wasn't one of them.]

Gamzee, oh no, you're hurt, you're still hurt! [She takes a few careful steps towards him, her hands reaching out, not sure if he wants anyone touching him with how badly banged up he is.]

[He's just overwhelmed at how Nepeta doesn't seem to be scared of him. Karkat seemed a bit nervous and when he bumped into Tavros, it was like the other troll had seen a ghost.

He gave a ginger smile and moved his hands towards hers to take them.]

It ain't all that bad. I've been motherfuckig worse.

[Nepeta is - probably irrationally - far more pissed off at the other trolls than she is at him right now. A curse was a curse, it could make people do terrible things.

And after all, she still remembers that other curse, ages ago, of a life lived through sweeps of events, the bad things that had happened then and how they'd brought Gamzee back from that too, what she'd given up to make it possible.]

It still looks pawful. Maybe we should find you a healer? Or at least somewhere safe and comfortable fur you to rest until you're better.

[She squeezes his hands a little, frowning.]

[Gamzee can remember everything. This event, the horrible things it made him feel, say and try to do, and he can also remember the time skip from a previous event too. He's never spoken about it, but he remembers it and he remembers that each time something has happened, Nepeta has been there for him.

That's why he pulled her in by her hands, close to his chest and just wrapped his arms around her. Having to double over a little from the height difference so he could hold her with his head pressed down into her small shoulder.]

Its cool, I'm good.... I'm good.

[At first she's surprised when he tugs her in, closer, and while her instincts nudge her to be wary it's only her natural trollish nature working to keep her safe, nothing specific to Gamzee himself.

She lets him hug her and bury his face in her shoulder, her own burrowed against his chest and therefore resulting in a very muffled voice from her.]

There, there. It'll be okay. It's going to be okay.

[His hug became a squeeze, a trembling kind of embrace and there was a clear sniff from his bruised nose. He wasn't crying, but he felt as if he probably could at any moment and not from the pain of his wounds, but from the pain of knowing he's lost and almost lost a lot of his friends.]

I dunno sis... Shir just don't feel the same.

[Gamzee had noticed that the other trolls were avoiding him. There had been no one there when he woke where he'd been killed, not even Karkat... The abandonment was as hard to swallow as when GoatDad left him all those sweeps ago.]

Some awful things happened. This place made awful things happen. We just all need some time to recover and start to feel better.

[She rubs at his back, or at least she does as far as she can reach, trying to soothe him and help him feel a little better too.]

Are you all up and sure it was just this place?

[He pulled away from the hug just enough to look her in the eyes as he asked.]

All those motherfuckers seemed pretty motherfucking normal ass to me sis.... Maybe they just don't dig me.

I'm not saying we're not all capable of what we did that day even without anything affecting us - but until this place cursed us we hadn't done any of that, we were getting along and we were pretty happy, weren't we?

[She looks up into his eyes, not sugar-coating anything or trying to hide the truth from him, being honest but at the same time trying to show him the good side of things.]

They weren't affected as badly as you were but I'm pretty sure some of them were. Karkat, Kanaya... And you did scare them, Gamzee. Even if you wouldn't have meant to at any other time.

[He nodded.]

Yea, I was motherfucking happy sis.

[Now that Nepeta mentioned it, Karkat didn't seem to be acting the way he normally would as pale-bros should, and as for the others? They seemed quicker to jump in then normally too.]

I scared my motherfucking self Nep... I don't wanna all up and act like that again.

We'll be happy again. You'll see.

[She smiles, a little tired - more emotionally than anything else - but still trying to be reassuring. It's been incredibly tough coping without Equius around, but having Gamzee back helps a little bit at least.]

And you won't! That wasn't you, not really you, it was this place. It got to you, brought bad things out of you. You don't have to be like that, I know you're not really that way.

Y'know sis.... I think I all up and motherfucking believe you when you say it.

[Hopefully Gamzee will step up and be a little more responsible. Once he realizes how mush he's actually needed, and how much he means to some troll, even if its just a few, he'll pull his act together.]

I' not gonna sit on my waste chute and get wicked ignorant no more sis, I know there's a motherfucking rot inside my pan... Just gotta stop it from fucking my shit up like that again yo.

I'll help you. You'll let me help you, right, Gamzee? Do you think you'll be able to listen to me, even if something makes you start getting like that again?

I think so, sis, I think so.

[Papping her back as he pulled her into another close hug. Between Karkat and Nepeta, Gamzee should be able to keep his shit together.]

Good. Good. Things will get better, you'll see.

[Can has snuggle times now?]

[All the snuggle times!]

Wanna come chill the fuck out in my horn pile sis? This jammin' has me all kinds of worn down and I could motherfucking do with a long ass cuddle yo.

That sounds like the best idea efur to me, oh yes.

[With that said, Gamzee heaved Nepeta up, over a shoulder like a troll who fights fires would and strolls off towards the horn pile.]

So motherfucking glad you said that sis, so motherfucking glad!

[She squeals and laughs as he hoists her up, letting him carry her pretty much as he pleases.]

Where is your pile, Gamzee?

[That squeal and laugh was all Gamzee needed to hear to feel so much better, he just hadn't known it.]

Uuuuhh... Good motherfucking point sis.

[He span around a few times, getting his bearings and also just a little bit to make Nepeta dizzy :o)]

[There's more dizzy laughter coming from the kitty troll, but she doesn't cling in fright or flail to get down. She trusts him not to drop her.]

Gamzeeeee! We have to find it! [SHE HAS BEEN PROMISED CUDDLES AND SHE INTENDS TO GET THEM.]

[His pile is actually inside the hive.. He's not sure Nepeta will want to go back in... Not through the front door anyway, seeing as there was still blood stained on the stairs.]

I motherfucking know where it is sis!

[Walking around to the other side of the hive, Gamzee looked up... If he followed the drain pipe, he'd be able to climb it and get in through his window.]

Ups-a-motherfucking-daisy!

[Now she does start flailing a little, though. She'd assumed he'd moved his pile elsewhere, not left it in the hive.]

Gamzee! Where are we going?!

To my motherfucking horn pile.

[He stopped, seeing as Nepeta was flailing and set her down.]

What's up sis? I... I thought you all up and wanted to get this motherfucking hug-fest on the road?

[Maybe they're have to go to Nepeta's pile, if she didn't want to go back inside the hive.]

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